Self realisation, reality and existence.

Today when i had a stroke like a near death experience when I was driving back from the gym. I experience high heart rate and body pain, because I did some excessive exercise today on empty stomach or something. 

I stopped my byke put my laptop and gym back aside on the footpath and started rushing for my water bkttle. I was sweating heavily. 

Today at that movement just before 5 hours of written this, I realised that nothing matters, those judgements, opinions, and all those bs that we tend to think is real. 

I just to do good in this world, and my wish is somehow I can help someone in any form irrespective of anything. 

I wish for peace loving more blissful world. When I read /see all that wrong /painful happening in the world, I feel really upset. I wish I could fix all those miseries and suffering people hace to go through. But then I think may be thata the way the universe works, there is no pain/ wrong, may be its just the way existence has to function.

We planet earth is just a speck/ point/ negligible in this vast cosmos but look at the chaos inside. So I wonder what would be the level of balance or chaos when combining all other cosmic existence, considering that life ia outthere too. 

Just wanted to say thank you. Love you. Be in touch.